For quite some time now, (oh, I don’t know, maybe the last 630 days), I’ve been blessed by you and the care-team taking stellar care of me.
Most of those days I felt, given the circumstances, I had hit the jackpot. My pain was manageable, we went on some manageable adventures together, which honestly sometimes looked like just a walk around the neighborhood.
When I look back, though, sometimes I feel like those “manageable” adventures with you by my side have been born out of complacency instead of taking care of you in a way that I know I could have and should have-- like going trying new restaurants or bars or even going on scary adventures.
(Then again, just a walk around the neighborhood. did lead to an incredible guest essay so maybe I shouldn’t always be too upset if things sometimes seem a little too manageable.)
Taking care of people I love is critically important to me. Maybe it’s hard to remember after I have been out of commission all this time-- but truly, taking care of people I love fills me up more than I can describe.
This is one of the millions of ways you and I are similar. You’ve always taken brilliant care of me. In fact, people comment on it every single day. And that, my dear, is because you’re my Soulmatch.
We’ve spoken about this before. About how maybe there isn’t one single human that can make a person happy every single minute of everyday, but certainly a group of people who can band together to make a person feel whole.
There is about 0% doubt you, John, my siblings, and the -illy’s do this for me.
...Just like Lorelei needed Rory, and Christopher, and Luke, and Sookie, oh yeah, and Max. Max seems random, huh? Well, I recently rewatched the 1.000 yellow daisy scene, my heart dropped deep into my chest. Talk about a grand gesture, and not because he knew for sure that Lorelei was going to say yes-- in fact, he distinctively gave her to have the opportunity to say no. BOLD MOVE. I love when people act fearlessly in the face of uncertainty. And today, I’d like to do the same.
Kylie, when you looked at me the other month following a less than ideal scan and said:
“I just feel like my life is moving too slowly for you,”
I have never felt myself resonate more in the opposite direction. Do you remember when I looked you back your way and said?
“That’s funny, because I feel like mine is moving too fast for yours.”
I don’t want to waste another moment being an average friend to you. I want to celebrate life milestones with you, my dear Soulmatch, even when the timing doesn’t work out perfectly. I’m perfectly content with the idea of having a million people to share you with (before, during, and after me), as long as you let me love you fearlessly while I am beside you.
So get ready for a day of pampering/ loving/ and creating unmanageable memories together. I can’t wait to get out there and celebrate another day of life with you,
Happy Kylie Day!!
August, 2017 - Bonus Days. Like today. With you.